Self-Portrait
Self-Portrait Denzil Jayasinghe 3 min read · 6 hours ago I turned sixteen that year, in the kind of heat that made the whole village move slower, and I was looking for something I couldn’t have named at the time. Not a girl, not yet. Something closer to just wanting to see myself plainly, without anyone’s eyes on me but my own. My mother’s dressing table had a long mirror, the kind that showed you the whole of yourself instead of just the face you gave the world. I stood in front of it one afternoon with a pencil and a few sheets of paper, and I drew what I saw. Not well. Not with any training or theory behind it – I didn’t know what an artist’s studio was, had never heard the word “model,” had no idea life drawing was a discipline other people took seriously. I removed my short pants with elastic waist band stitched by my mother. I only knew I wanted to put myself down on paper, exactly as I was, and see if the two versions matched. Looking back now it has the shape of something bohem...